There is a light that no man can stand up too. No man can hide from. And one day every man, no matter how great, will fall face down on the ground and confess, he is nothing...That light is our LORD and SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST. The light that blinded Paul, and the light that struck fear and awe in people's hearts when they saw it. Now I do not think that many of us have seen this but there are different examples in the Bible of people seeing it. And I don't think many people realize how powerful it is. But a day is coming when turning your back, won't be an option. So for all of you who don't really take God or spiritual things seriously, just remember, "Nothing stands between a man and his maker"(ABR)
Over the last few weeks I have realized how amazing and powerful this light is. I have learned to depend on this light with everything I am, to be able to make it through the darkness. Without it there is no way I could keep pressing on, for I am nothing.
I have seen glimpses of this light over the last few weeks, more than once. The last few weeks have been very hard and dark. But God helped me get through them and now I see the light at the end of the tunnel. I know right now my life is hard, and my spiritual life is not where I want it; but I also know that God is helping me every step of the way and there is light in the darkness. Sometimes when we are going through struggle and hurt it is hard to see the light, and it is hard to find hope. But just take time to talk to God, pour out your heart to God and tell Him everything that is going on. He already knows what your going through but He wants you to pour out your heart to Him. He wants you to come to Him broken and hurt, because He will heal you. Just put all your trust in Him and He will guide you and make your paths straight. When I lay on my bed and just pour out my heart to Him, I feel so comforted. He hears me through all the tears and hurt; and I know that He will never leave me or forsake me. Although I still miss my home in Pennsylvania and all my friends and living here is very hard for me; I know that God wants me here. He has a special plan for me and wants to bless me. I just need to give it all to Him and follow Him no matter how hard things get. I need God because I am nothing without Him. I still am not quite sure why I'm here but I trust God because He knows what is best for me.
So the next time your going through struggle and you can't seem to see through all the hurt and darkness; turn to God and He will show you the light at the end of the tunnel.
Don't ever give up, run to your Savior and He will give you strength.
Keep up the prayer and never give up hope. Look to Jesus Christ, The Blinding Light...
Once again I take no credit for this title, it is the title of a song.
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Through Struggle
When I first heard about the fact that we were going to move to Mexico and live there for a number of years, I thought my life was over. I could not understand why we were going to do this; I was angry at my parents, at GOD, and at the world. Everything that I had known, everyone I knew, everything was going to change. I did not see how this could be a good thing, all I saw and felt was hurt, pain, and anger. My attitude was not very good at all over the months before we left. I was blinded by the pain and sorrow that I could not see anything good. It would make me feel worse every time someone from church or somewhere told how this was a great opportunity and that God had big plans for me. I hated when people told me that. When I went places I would act like everything was just great and that I was super excited to leave. I guess most people thought I was happy to go. But deep inside were the feelings that I kept hidden from the world, and only a very few good friends knew how I really felt. But there were a few times when my true feelings would come forth. Mostly these times happened when I was alone in my room or writing music. I find that music helps me to pour out my feelings and is a good way to express myself.
Please keep me in your prayers, I desperately need it. Even though we have been here for about 10 months I still have feelings of hate, pain, and sorrow. I know God has a plan for me and knows what is best, but I tend to forget that a lot. I don't see the big picture most of the time, but I do tend to see the pain and suffering. Please pray that God would open my eyes to see the big picture and not just the little things.
I have come a long way since we left in August and have changed a lot also. I feel in some ways that I am a completely different person; hopefully you all will remember me when I visit.
Just so all of you know, I did not come up with the title all by myself. I stole it from a song title, well, borrowed it. You can look up the song if you want to but I do not think most of will like it because it's pretty hard stuff. But I love that song and I thought the title was good for a blog title. There is one line in the song that I love which says, "Only THROUGH STRUGGLE have I found rest." To me this means that even through all the struggle and pain, there will be rest in the end. I feel that I am still going through the struggle, but eventually I know things will get better and rest will be possible. But for know, I must get through the storms and through this struggle. GOD help me get through this pain and suffering, GOD help me because I can not do it on my own...I am nothing on my own. Oh that this storm would pass quickly and I would make it out of the darkness into the light. Please, I implore you all to pray that GOD would give me strength and I would see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Remember to tell all your friends about my blog.
Also pray for my parents and all the missionaries here, GOD is working.
Please keep me in your prayers, I desperately need it. Even though we have been here for about 10 months I still have feelings of hate, pain, and sorrow. I know God has a plan for me and knows what is best, but I tend to forget that a lot. I don't see the big picture most of the time, but I do tend to see the pain and suffering. Please pray that God would open my eyes to see the big picture and not just the little things.
I have come a long way since we left in August and have changed a lot also. I feel in some ways that I am a completely different person; hopefully you all will remember me when I visit.
Just so all of you know, I did not come up with the title all by myself. I stole it from a song title, well, borrowed it. You can look up the song if you want to but I do not think most of will like it because it's pretty hard stuff. But I love that song and I thought the title was good for a blog title. There is one line in the song that I love which says, "Only THROUGH STRUGGLE have I found rest." To me this means that even through all the struggle and pain, there will be rest in the end. I feel that I am still going through the struggle, but eventually I know things will get better and rest will be possible. But for know, I must get through the storms and through this struggle. GOD help me get through this pain and suffering, GOD help me because I can not do it on my own...I am nothing on my own. Oh that this storm would pass quickly and I would make it out of the darkness into the light. Please, I implore you all to pray that GOD would give me strength and I would see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Remember to tell all your friends about my blog.
Also pray for my parents and all the missionaries here, GOD is working.
Friday, June 13, 2008
Dots, and All The Colors of The Rainbow
Does anyone else like dots? I think they are the coolest things ever. I love them so much and think that everyone should love them too. And that is why I changed my blog to a whole new look. It's so sweet.
What do you all think? Well anyway, soccer is going really good. I think the team is really starting to play like a unit and we will do very well in Acapulco. Please pray that the tournament goes well and that no one gets hurt. Things at the canchas are still good although I do not get to play there as much. I still try to go when I can to see the guys and just hang with them. I do love to play there though because playing there helps with speed and ball handling. Has anyone been keeping up with the soccer games? You can watch country against country struggle for victory in the best sport ever, which is so sweet to watch.
Wow, Mexico has some amazing food to offer. There are so many great things to eat and drink. You all need to come visit sometime and I will take to the best places to eat. I do not really know how to describe the food, it's just so amazing. But, even with sweet food here and all the tacos I could want, I do really want some Taco Bell. Taco Bell is so amazing and I really wish they had it here. But they do not, so I will have to wait till I come and visit.
Speaking of coming back up to visit, It looks like I will not be able to come visit this summer. But I think I will be able to come up for Christmas. Yes, that is a long way away, I have thought of that. But that seems like when it will happen. I long to see you all so much and pray that the day will be sooner. I miss you all so much!!! You have no idea, all the nights I have cried myself to sleep wishing I could come home for a visit. But I know that God knows when the best time will be and I trust Him because He knows what is best for me and this life He has given me.
A few prayer requests for you all to keep in your prayers are: For all the missionaries serving here. That they would not give up no matter how hard it gets. For all the people we have met and those we have yet to meet. That we could be an example to them and that they would see Christ in us. Pray fro my parents as they are trying to learn the language and put up with me at the same time. Also, please pray for me to not give up but to keep going no matter what happens. There are many times when i just felt like giving up; and thought it would be better to just die than have to keep going on. I need strength, I need to trust God, and I need to have faith that God is in control.
What do you all think? Well anyway, soccer is going really good. I think the team is really starting to play like a unit and we will do very well in Acapulco. Please pray that the tournament goes well and that no one gets hurt. Things at the canchas are still good although I do not get to play there as much. I still try to go when I can to see the guys and just hang with them. I do love to play there though because playing there helps with speed and ball handling. Has anyone been keeping up with the soccer games? You can watch country against country struggle for victory in the best sport ever, which is so sweet to watch.
Wow, Mexico has some amazing food to offer. There are so many great things to eat and drink. You all need to come visit sometime and I will take to the best places to eat. I do not really know how to describe the food, it's just so amazing. But, even with sweet food here and all the tacos I could want, I do really want some Taco Bell. Taco Bell is so amazing and I really wish they had it here. But they do not, so I will have to wait till I come and visit.
Speaking of coming back up to visit, It looks like I will not be able to come visit this summer. But I think I will be able to come up for Christmas. Yes, that is a long way away, I have thought of that. But that seems like when it will happen. I long to see you all so much and pray that the day will be sooner. I miss you all so much!!! You have no idea, all the nights I have cried myself to sleep wishing I could come home for a visit. But I know that God knows when the best time will be and I trust Him because He knows what is best for me and this life He has given me.
A few prayer requests for you all to keep in your prayers are: For all the missionaries serving here. That they would not give up no matter how hard it gets. For all the people we have met and those we have yet to meet. That we could be an example to them and that they would see Christ in us. Pray fro my parents as they are trying to learn the language and put up with me at the same time. Also, please pray for me to not give up but to keep going no matter what happens. There are many times when i just felt like giving up; and thought it would be better to just die than have to keep going on. I need strength, I need to trust God, and I need to have faith that God is in control.
Saturday, June 7, 2008
It's Raining Rain
It has rained the last few days very, very hard. I got caught in the rain again on my way back from training and when I got home, I was totally soaked. But it was OK because I like the rain. It is so fun to just go out in the rain and jump in puddles or whatever you want to do.
Some of you might know and some might not know that Thursday was my Father's birthday. We had some people come over at night and had some time to talk and eat cake. It was cool because some of my friends came over. So we went out to the nearby cancha and played some futbol for a while. You can pray for them, their names are Diego and Oscar. Pray that Daniel and I would be able to be good witnesses to them and lead them to Christ. Also pray for them because their parents are divorced.
Did anyone watch the Mexico and Argentina game? I did. It was a very good game, and so exciting. I got to see my favorite player score a sweet goal, Go Messi!!! But sadly, Mexico lost the game 4-1. They do play good, but sometimes not good enough. Things with soccer are still sweet, and time is ticking down to when we go to Acapulco. I can not wait to go and play! Only three more weeks I think till we set off.
Keep up the prayer.
I also wanted to thank the people who comment on my blog, I really appreciate it when you do. Although it would not hurt for people to comment some more, there are a few people who comment a lot and others who do every month or so. I ask that people would do that more because it makes me feel good, and helps me know that you are there reading what I say. Please comment on my blogs!
Some of you might know and some might not know that Thursday was my Father's birthday. We had some people come over at night and had some time to talk and eat cake. It was cool because some of my friends came over. So we went out to the nearby cancha and played some futbol for a while. You can pray for them, their names are Diego and Oscar. Pray that Daniel and I would be able to be good witnesses to them and lead them to Christ. Also pray for them because their parents are divorced.
Did anyone watch the Mexico and Argentina game? I did. It was a very good game, and so exciting. I got to see my favorite player score a sweet goal, Go Messi!!! But sadly, Mexico lost the game 4-1. They do play good, but sometimes not good enough. Things with soccer are still sweet, and time is ticking down to when we go to Acapulco. I can not wait to go and play! Only three more weeks I think till we set off.
Keep up the prayer.
I also wanted to thank the people who comment on my blog, I really appreciate it when you do. Although it would not hurt for people to comment some more, there are a few people who comment a lot and others who do every month or so. I ask that people would do that more because it makes me feel good, and helps me know that you are there reading what I say. Please comment on my blogs!
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Go Dance In The Rain
Hey everyone!!! Wow I am doing another blog, I am getting really good at this. Just in case you all did not know, rainy season has started. That means that it rains pretty much everyday. Today would be a good example because as I would walking back from training to get a bus, it started to pour. But it is was OK because I did not get completely wet and it was kinda fun, like an adventure.
So when does everyone get out of school? I finished last Friday, I am so happy. It was a very interesting year. I enjoyed it and did not enjoy it. The school I went to was different. It is called Puebla Christian School and was in English, but pretty much everyone there knows English and Spanish; except me. But I am learning, little by little. Someday I will be able to speak Spanish like no ones business, but until then I will just try my best. OK well I will talk to you all later and I hope that you are all well over there in The States. I must go because right now I am watching a soccer game between Argentina and Mexico.
So when does everyone get out of school? I finished last Friday, I am so happy. It was a very interesting year. I enjoyed it and did not enjoy it. The school I went to was different. It is called Puebla Christian School and was in English, but pretty much everyone there knows English and Spanish; except me. But I am learning, little by little. Someday I will be able to speak Spanish like no ones business, but until then I will just try my best. OK well I will talk to you all later and I hope that you are all well over there in The States. I must go because right now I am watching a soccer game between Argentina and Mexico.
Monday, June 2, 2008
A Long Time Ago
A long time ago I posted a blog, and I have not done one since then. But I am changing that right now. But I feel that i need to say sorry to all of you for not blogging in a while. I was thinking about it and if I do not blog then how will any of you know what is going on or how I am. Please forgive me, I will try to blog more often.
Anyway, it has been an interesting few weeks since I last blogged and there is a lot to say. So I will try to say everything but I might leave some things out that are not as important. I think the first thing i want to say is that I rededicated my life to Christ about 2 weeks ago. That is the most important thing to say, totally. So i ask all of you to pray for me to continue to trust in God and to grow closer to Him. Because without Him I would not be able to make it down here and would just give up. I would have given up a long time ago from all the pain, hurt, and stress. But thank God that He is always here for me and that I can trust in Him to give me strength and energy to keep going. With Him all things are possible.
The next thing that I am going to talk about is soccer. Most of you know that i think soccer is the best sport in the world and that everyone should play this sport. But sadly the country I was born in does not take soccer as seriously as every other country. Normally I would have practice like 3-4 times a week. But now I have practice pretty much every day of the week. And at least 2 of those days we all go to this mountain and run for about an hour. We do a lot of physical stuff at practice too. I love the training that we do because if you ever watch soccer on TV and they show some clips of big club teams training, most of the things they do are what we do. Our head trainer Freddi is so sweet. Because he knows what he is doing with all the stuff and is an amazing player too. But he also makes training fun because he makes jokes and is just fun to be around. Training is very intense right now because we are training for a tournament in Acapulco. The tournament is in July and is for a week. I hear that is is very big because teams from other countries are coming down to play too.
Also, because a few weeks ago we won the championship in our league, we are going to play in the top division. I am so sicked to go and play, it sounds so awesome.
Not much else has been going on, I already mentioned the main things.
I would also like to remind you all to keep up the prayer and the support. We all need the prayer and the support very much. thank you all for reading this and for even caring to read it. I will try to do this more often. Peace out y'all.
Anyway, it has been an interesting few weeks since I last blogged and there is a lot to say. So I will try to say everything but I might leave some things out that are not as important. I think the first thing i want to say is that I rededicated my life to Christ about 2 weeks ago. That is the most important thing to say, totally. So i ask all of you to pray for me to continue to trust in God and to grow closer to Him. Because without Him I would not be able to make it down here and would just give up. I would have given up a long time ago from all the pain, hurt, and stress. But thank God that He is always here for me and that I can trust in Him to give me strength and energy to keep going. With Him all things are possible.
The next thing that I am going to talk about is soccer. Most of you know that i think soccer is the best sport in the world and that everyone should play this sport. But sadly the country I was born in does not take soccer as seriously as every other country. Normally I would have practice like 3-4 times a week. But now I have practice pretty much every day of the week. And at least 2 of those days we all go to this mountain and run for about an hour. We do a lot of physical stuff at practice too. I love the training that we do because if you ever watch soccer on TV and they show some clips of big club teams training, most of the things they do are what we do. Our head trainer Freddi is so sweet. Because he knows what he is doing with all the stuff and is an amazing player too. But he also makes training fun because he makes jokes and is just fun to be around. Training is very intense right now because we are training for a tournament in Acapulco. The tournament is in July and is for a week. I hear that is is very big because teams from other countries are coming down to play too.
Also, because a few weeks ago we won the championship in our league, we are going to play in the top division. I am so sicked to go and play, it sounds so awesome.
Not much else has been going on, I already mentioned the main things.
I would also like to remind you all to keep up the prayer and the support. We all need the prayer and the support very much. thank you all for reading this and for even caring to read it. I will try to do this more often. Peace out y'all.
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